I was getting ready
to film a video,
when I remembered
the last one
and how I had repeated
the word "Umm"
over and over,
and that
it bothered me,
so I thought
that I would try
not to say "Umm",
so I started filming
and talking spontaneously,
but as soon
as I felt like saying "Umm"
I stopped
and couldn't get started again,
because my head
went blank,
so I tried again
and the same thing happened,
so I laughed
and decided
that I had to say "Umm",
because it is
a necessary word
in my vocabulary.
Art is something
that people spend
half of their lifetimes
studying,
and then realize
that it's too hard,
and give up,
and art is something
that little kids can do
as well as anybody,
and is something that anybody
can do,
and art is something
that you can do blindfolded,
which has probably
already been done,
so art is where
you give yourself
a pen
and a blank sheet
of paper
and do anything
with it,
so, it's very difficult.
So, we know
that it is possible
that we on Earth
could have
an enormous catastrophe
like what happened
to the dinosaurs,
so in the Bible
there's this book
that says
that it will happen,
so, this has bugged me
for a long time
until I came up
with a reasonable answer
about it
for myself,
so here goes -
The Universe
has a plan
to develop
Pure Lands
or Heavens
out of the planets,
but the problem here,
as we all know
is that there is a lot
of bad riff-raff around,
so a possible solution
is to do away
with the riff-raff
and leave the pure people behind
to repopulate the world
and make it a pure land,
sending the riff-raff, elsewhere,
and the thought is
that before that happens,
Maitreya Buddha
will show up,
and just maybe
he can purify the riff-raff,
and then the catastrophe
won't happen,
but I'm not sure
about any of this
but it's a relief
to me.
So, my great life
around the house
is a great adventure
of waking up
and doing exercises
that are some kind of
amazing, Oriental and New Age
miracle healing things,
(or maybe they're just exercises)
and then
going to my amazing home temple,
(my room)
and performing
my amazing Zen practice
with even some amazing
Christianity, too,
and then it's on
to the great art adventure
where I do
the amazing feats
of painting
and poetry
and dance
and music
and video art
and music composition,
so then
when I get
really tired,
it's off
to the land of dreams,
where the adventure
doesn't end.
